"'You'll find your feet if you don't look down' she said"
Those of you who know my last album #ASongInSevenDays will know that in May of 2018 I wrote a song called ‘Thicker Than Water’. The song itself was about the importance of family and was written around the time I lost my Grandma Jess. It was a hard time for the whole family and I can still recall exactly what those days felt like.
In the last few weeks of her life, I recall we did as much as we could to help process what was going on. As a family we would often meet and talk about things over a cup of tea. As individuals we leant on our own personal coping mechanisms; meditation, reading, watching great films and in my case, running.
At the time, I was going out every other day and running as far as I could. I was putting on my trainers and getting out there - and it was helping. My mind felt clearer and every time I went out I would come back feeling better equipped to deal with what was going on. It’s something I’ve carried with me as a coping mechanism since and those of you who watch my Vlogs know that my running has already taken me on some pretty scenic routes!
'I still hear her voice, singing in my ear'
There is no doubt that my Grandma was and still is a huge influence on my life. She always had words of encouragement and wisdom at hand for a whole manner of things. Looking back, it’s clear she actually prepared us all for the hardship we faced in losing her. My way of dealing with things had certainly come from advice that she had given me over the years - to go out and do things that are outside your comfort zone as much as you can. At the time I was going out and running, it was the last thing I wanted to do. But I’m so glad that I pushed through, as it taught me a very valuable lesson.
Since then, I’ve taken her words and pushed myself to do the things that scare me on a daily basis. Truth be told, you wouldn’t be sat here reading this if that weren’t the case. She always encouraged me to keep on writing music, but I was scared of putting it out to new audiences and listeners. Now, we have the Tea Break Club and the community is growing every day - it surely wouldn’t have happened without her words.
The musical aspect of ‘Find Your Feet’ also ties into running. I wanted to write something with a slow intro (a warm up, if you will) that kicked in after a minute or so - quite specifically at a pace I like to run at! I’ve created a track to run to! If you match your footfall with the beat of the song, you’ll be running with me…
As I continue to find new things outside of my comfort zone, ‘Find Your Feet’ will always serve as an anchor point - a reminder. Whenever I feel comfortable and settled, I’ll grab my trainers and head out with the song playing.